hold my hand and we're half way there..

kill yourself..

2004-09-28T23:52:39Z

Your gender:: GirLiE
Straight/Gay/Bi:: i <3 boyz
Single?: yuPp
If not, do you want to be?: nOpe
Birthdate:: MarCh 3rd 1988
Your age:: 16
Age you act:: 16??
Age you wish you were:: 18
Your height:: 5'6
Eye color:: BluE
Happy with it?: veRy happy
Hair color:: blondE
Happy with it?: wish it was brOwn but i like it
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: RiGhTy
Your living arrangement:: MadRez
Your family:: MaDre - FadJa - Matt - Kevin
Have any pets?: Buster + Kisses
Whats your job?: ChiLd Care
Piercings?: 10
Tattoos?: nOt yet
Obsessions?: NiCk CarTer
Addictions?: PePsi
Do you speak another language?: hah nO
Have a favorite quote?: idk
Do you have a webpage?: nahh

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it

Do you live in the moment?: yeAh
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: YeAh
Do you have any secrets?: YuPP
Do you hate yourself?: nO
Do you like your handwriting?: nO
Do you have any bad habits?: bitin my nailz
What is the compliment you get from most people?: my EyeS - PerSonalitY
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: the GiRl whO lovEs PePsi
What's your biggest fear?: JaSon coMing to Kill Me
Can you sing?: haha yeah Ok
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: eWw nO
Are you a loner?: nO
What are your #1 priorities in life?: FrienDz + CeLl + SoFty ;o)
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: duhh
Are you a daredevil?: of course
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: YeAh
Are you passive or agressive?: bOth
Do you have a journal?: well duhh
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: weAkNeSs- get piSsed to faSt Strength-dOnt give a dAmn
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my nOse
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: nOt at all
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: plEnty
Do you think life has been good so far?: suRe
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: know who ur real freinds are
What do you like the most about your body?: my EyEs
Do you think you are good looking?: nOpe
Are you confident?: sOmetimeS
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Mike Wizowski :)
Are you perceived wrongly?: YeS

Do You...

Smoke?: ew nO
Do drugs?: hellz nO
Read the newspaper?: oNce inna bLue mOon
Pray?: nOpe
Go to church?: nO
Talk to strangers who IM you?: nO
Sleep with stuffed animals?: when i need them
Take walks in the rain?: of course
Talk to people even though you hate them?: if i dont like them why wud i talk to them
Drive?: PerMit whOop lol
Like to drive fast?: puT the PedaL tO the MetAl baby

Would or Have You Ever?

Liked your voice?: noooo
Hurt yourself?: nO
Been out of the country?: nOpe
Eaten something that made other people sick?: hah yEah
Been in love?: yuPp
Done drugs?: No im gOod
Gone skinny dipping?: nOpe
Had a medical emergency?: lol YeAhhh
Had surgery?: i guEss
Ran away from home?: nO
Played strip poker?: kiNda lol
Gotten beaten up?: YeAh Ok!!
Beaten someone up?: yEaH
Been picked on?: yuP
Been on stage?: at elementary skool playz
Slept outdoors?: of cOurse
Thought about suicide?: nO way
Pulled an all nighter?: HELLO ITS ME WE ARE TALKING ABOUT HERE
If yes, what is your record?: all night
Gone one day without food?: YeaH
Talked on the phone all night?: all the time
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: YeAH
Slept all day?: yupppp
Killed someone?: sOmeday :)
Made out with a stranger?: YeAh
Had sex with a stranger?: nO
Thought you're going crazy?: YeAH
Kissed the same sex?: nO im gOod
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nO
Been betrayed?: yes
Had a dream that came true?: MeetIng NiCk CarTEr
Broken the law?: yuPp
Met a famous person?: NiCk CarTer - AarOn CarTer - Eaglez DuDez lol
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: OMG NO!!
On purpose?: NO WAY JOSE
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah
Stolen anything?: my bling ;o)
Been on radio/tv?: sii
Been in a mosh-pit?: lmaO yEaH oK
Had a nervous breakdown?: YeAh
Bungee jumped?: sOmeDay
Had a dream that kept coming back?: all the Time

Beliefs

Belive in life on other planets?: yEaH! RiCky!
Miracles?: YeAh
Astrology?: yUpp
Magic?: sii
God?: yeah
Satan?: No
Santa?: heh
Ghosts?: YESS
Luck?: yeah
Love at first sight?: YeAh
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yea
Witches?: yup
Easter bunny?: nO hes a hOMo
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: yes i dO
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: sii
Do you wish on stars?: every night <3

Deep Theological Questions

Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: YeAh
Do you think God has a gender?: bOy
Do you believe in organized religion?: suRe
Where do you think we go when we die?: hEaven

Friends

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Not that i nO of lol
Who is your best friend?: JeSs AlaiNa DaNiEl
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: lOok AbOve
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: theres alot of that
Your favourite inside joke?: way to many good ones
Thing you're picked on most about?: aLot
Who's your longest known friend?: Sheryl
Newest?: MiKe - RaChEl GeM
Shyest?: i dont have shy friendz lol
Funniest?: dOnt no
Sweetest?: duNno
Closest?: AlaiNa JeSs DaN
Weirdest?: AlaiNa MiKe
Smartest?: JeSs Dan ShEryL
Ditziest?: JeSs
Friends you miss being close to the most?: ShEryL
Last person you talked to online?: RyAn
Who do you talk to most online?: dOnt no
Who are you on the phone with most?: Alaina + JeSs
Who do you trust most?: a selective few
Who listens to your problems?: ppl i lOve
Who do you fight most with?: AlaiNa
Who's the nicest?: all of them?
Who's the most outgoing?: AlaiNa JeSs RaChEl
Who's the best singer?: JeSs
Who's on your shit-list?: lots and lots of people
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yup
Who's your second family?: Alainaz and Jessz
Do you always feel understood?: nO
Who's the loudest friend?: AlaiNa
Do you trust others easily?: unfortunatly
Who's house were you last at?: AlaiNaz
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: BeN NiCk
Do your friends know you?: duh
Friend that lives farthest away:: BeN

Love and All That

Do you consider love a mistake?: nO
What do you find romantic?: bEaCh @ Night - mOvies @ home at Night - bOardwaLk - wAlkz
Turn-on?: SmiLe - EyEz
Turn-off?: LiaRz - fuCked up teetH
First kiss?: dOug on my BirthDay in 6th GraDe
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: bAd cuz i nO how it feelz
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:knOwing them
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: no
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: Yeah
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: No
What is best about the opposite sex?: they cOme to the ResCue
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: BreaK ur HeArt tOo daMn muCh
What's the last present someone gave you?: BraClet frOm jEss on my b-Day
Are you in love?: nO ...
Do you consider your significant other hot?: dont have one

Who Was the Last Person...

That haunted you?: elvis
You wanted to kill?: hah dont u all no
That you laughed at?: AlaiNa
That laughed at you?: AlaiNa
That turned you on?: beN
You went shopping with?: JeSs
That broke your heart?: NiCk
To disappoint you?: NiCk AlaiNa
To ask you out?: BeN
To make you cry?: NiCk AlaiNa
To brighten up your day?: RyAn BeN MiKe NoOn
That you thought about?: BeN NiCk
You saw a movie with?: JeSs
You talked to on the phone?: RyaN
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: im away
You saw?: AlaiNa
You lost?: NiCk

Right This Moment...

Are you going out?: nO itz liKe a tyfOon Out there
Will it be with your significant other?: nO
Or some random person?: shut up
What are you wearing right now?: reD + blAck plaid Pj pAnts - I lOve NY ShiRt
Body part you're touching right now:: shOulder
What are you worried about right now?: sOmeone dOin somethin to Hurt mE
What book are you reading?: NotHING
What's on your mousepad?:DELL
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: UpSet - PisSed - DisappointEd - betrayEd - LonleY
Are you bored?: YeAH
Are you tired?: yEs VeRy
Are you talking to anyone online?: nO im away
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: nOt yet
Are you lonely or content?: LonlEy
Are you listening to music?: Nelly

bad mood + period = leave me the fuck alone

2004-09-27T23:49:21Z

Well...today is Nick's (( my Schliecherberger lol )) Birthday - - so HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY :)

this weekend was fun - - Friday Mike S. drove Me Jess Alaina Kaite Jess T. Ivan and Eric to Emilios and we all sat down and ate pizza .. it was alot of fun

Then we went to her Dadz - - and just chilled and watched movies and ate won ton...Saturday we went to Red Bank and bought POTATOE GUNS! OMG MIKE MIGZ I FORGOT TO TELL U!! YESS WE BOUGHT POTATOE GUNS!!!!! ahhhh!!!! they are soooo coool . . then we went out to dinner and saw The First Daughter <3 WOW what an amazing movie it was soooooooo good and the guy was sooo gorgeous, this is why girlz are so depressed...all me and jessie want is a fuckin fairy tale to happen to us..we dont do anything wrong to deserve all this shit we go thru..we are good kids lol..we just want a nice guy and something like that to happen to us </3

Then we came home and just chilled...@ 12 which was Jess'z birthday I gave her, her gift :) I got her a gold ring and it sayz Sweet 16 and inside of it its engraved Jess and Jen S4L 9-26-04 she loved it yay - - and a collage and Hairy Potter Jelly beans lOl..and 2 balloons, so we watched sum of Beaches and went to Sleep

Woke up and went to Breakfast..then me and Jess went back to her house and Jess had another crappy Birthday...Last Year her mom wudnt take Us anywhere and this year she made a big stink about it and got Jess really upset and I felt really bad cuz its her birthday...but me and Jess winded up goin to the Mall and made build a bears but didnt buy them lol...and we saw First Daughter again ..omg itss sooooo goooodd..then we picked up Alaina and went back to Jessz and my mom came in and we all had birthday cake..then we just chilled last night

too many good times * ilu girlz <33 b f f

Woke up - - went to skool, not in the best mood since last night..the only time i smiled today was in lunch..i alwayz have a good time in lunch but today was sooo funny..we were sooooo loud and made such a big scene * ok basically i have my period..so i asked Brooke (( good Brooke )) if she had a tampon but in code i did..and Mike figured it out that I asked for that and i was like NO NO NO!! lmao..and then shes like HERE YOU GO!! And just hands it to me, if u no me at all those things sceeve me lol...then Noon flings his arm back and it went flying behind him to the next table..omg we were all crying it was sooo funny..and then Mike was like HEY CAN I HAVE MY TAMPON BACK! lmao it was soooo funny..good times*good times :)

Well I came home and watched a few movies and went to sleep...i havent been in the best mood since last night...ive been crying and i just hate backstabbers .. can u just stop already cuz ... this is killling me

mii_fairy_tale @ 2004-09-23T23:00:00

2004-09-24T03:10:47Z

im on the phone with jess :) talked about a buncha shizz...im goin to her dads this weekend and her birthday is on sunday :)!! its gunna be funnnn...so next time you all see me will be monday cuz im sleepin at her house on her birthday...arent u all so lucky not to see me..well im even more thrilled not to see uz either - - 1st period- fun as alwayz ... Chris B..how bout sum photo fO? lol 2nd-quiz 3rd- gay 4th-long and gay..came home and did shizz for jessz birthday presents and yeah thats about it...went out for a lil...talked to ben cuz i needed to talk to him like whoa..i miss him alot...

jess- i mean he doesnt get that im giving him hints that i like him, HES DUMBER THAN ME
me- lmao
i mean who is dumber than jess? lol sry u no i love u

yeah so this weekend is gunna be awesome..alaina is coming too this time :) tomorrow after skool me and jess and kaite and jess t are gunna walk to get pizza then her dad is coming to get us...so yeah nice weekend with my girlz and away from all the bullshit

peace

hahaha imma bitch??

2004-09-23T02:29:55Z

hahahaha..people crack me the fuck up...wow i dont wanna be friends with a fuckin liar, and now im sum kinda bitch?! jeeze everyone needs to grow the hell up..how old are we? sorry if all my friendship with him was lies and lies and u cant trust him and all he does he backstab u and is a fuckin scumbag..kill me now cuz i dont want that kinda person in my life..god im handling it pretty well, maybe cuz i cud care less, i dont no why ppl who cant even face up and tell me who they are, are makin it seem like this is my fault, i did abslotly nothing in me and nicks friendship to make us the way we are, and he knows it, it was all him, hes the one who fucked up ..to many times..sorry i forgave him way to many times, and im not anymore..so just stop with the bullshit

any wayz here is my day - - yesterday me and jess went to target yet again, lol and got i got Sweat and Jess got Suit* burnin each others - -then she slept over and it was such a funny night - - flippin on us for no reasons at all...hah we just sit here and laugh and watch how pathetic you are, anyways watched mean girls and went to bed, then skool was skool, p was concerned about my foot, went to work, came home and now im just chillen bored...took sum pics for graphic communications, and yeah thats about it-- im done

oh wont u please leave me another annoymous comment, cuz they make me laugh :)

JeSsz Sweet 16 !!!!!!

2004-09-19T01:42:51Z

wow...wut an amazing weekend...got a lot to say!

September 17

Yesterday was Jessz Sweet 16!!! OH man! Did i have fun or what? it was a movie star theme and wow just amazign..lol..it started off with my Dad takin me to get my hurr did - - i got a french braid on the back of my head, like underneath, then pulled back criss crossed with curls. I really liked it..Alaina and her mom came by the shop for support lol * Where I go, they go, their my pose! lol...then my daddy took me home and he stayed a lil bit, I did my make up and got ready, and then me and my mom went off to Freehold Gardens! Everyone was complimenting me, i felt cool lol, I walked in so Jess and she looked so beautiful, sed Hi to her Mom, Dad, Grandparents, it was funny, they were like Jen!! im like HEY GUYS!! lol..and her grandma always sings this song when we see each other, it was funny, then saw Jennie, and i havent seen her inna long time, found my table, Wizard of Oz! Then I went in the front and Alaina + Rachel pulled up, both of them looked gorgeous..and i saw everyone else. We went in and mingled lol, wow it was sooooo nice in there, amazing, i cant even describe how beautiful everything was..So then everyone went on the floor and Jess and her Dad and her Mom walked in, and thats when the parted started!! lol...Me, Alaina, Rachel, Beth, Dan, Kaite, everyone, we were all dancing like whoa...non stop it was soo much fun :-) After we danced for awhile, they served dinner and then went back on the dance floor! Except with no shoes this time ;-) man was it funn...jump jump on it! lol...Just putting me, alaina, raych, beth together all at once, wow..it was a blast!! Jess came around a few times and danced with her of course, Justin dedicated a song to Jess and they danced it was so cute, and of course her father daughter dance :-) then she did her candels...When she did her grandpa, i started crying, Marissa was like are you ok? It was so sad, cuz he meant so much to Jess, and it just got me choked up. She did family to friends, i was # 16 along with Alaina + Raych for the Ninja Turtles :-) and Jennies was lucky # 17, it was so cute. After we got desert, and danced some more!! My mom and Dana was like, its hot in here, im like yeah it is! and shes like they need to bring in a fan to cool you off! im like huh? and shes like yeah, your so cute cuz i didnt get it, but i guess how i was dancing lol * So went back on the dance floor, it was just so much funn with all of my friends, Mike Migz asked me to dance for cotten eye joe to be his partner!! lol so of course i accepted, i mean its my Mike! lol that was funn, then Jess + Marissa sang a song from Wicked, and then ME JESS MARISSA ALAINA JENNIE AND PAM sang DEFYING GRAVITY!!!!!!! lmao it was sooo funny..in front of everyone!!!!! omg it was GREAT! Then we did some dancing some more lol, i was dancing my ass off last night ;-) to top it off they ended it, with DIRRTY! lmao! ME AND BETH! OH MANNN!!! DO not put me and Beth and Dirrty out there on the dance floor!! Me and Beth got a lil Dirty ourselves!!!! lmao it was great! and Nelly - its hot in herreeeee ohh snappp....that was the end of the party, and Jess was having such a great time and everyone was and it was just the best party ever...

It ended around 1115ish...then Me Alaina and Rachel went to Alainas house so they can pick up there stuff to come to my house...lmao we ordered a pizza, well i ordered a pizza, and i was like hi can i place a order? and hes like yeah, im like ok, i want a large cheese pizza, but i want extra cheese, like a lot of extra cheese, ok..like ALOT Of cheese, really cheesy lmao it was soo funny, and then when we got there, we were like we are the girlz who ordered the realllly cheese pizza, and i had to check it lol...and he was talking to us cuz we were all fancy and shizz...then we went home, and chilled, talked online for a lil, and watched CenterStage, and went to bed down here.

ToDay-
wow my mom was sooo fuckin loud this am! i was sleeping and shes like bangin shit and i was like SHUT THE FUCK UP!! and the girlz were cracking up, like mann, so to her we were up nice and early, we had bagels, and the got ready and went to PA to go to the Franklin Mills Mall!! DAMN! thats a hugee mall, and very exhausting the night after a party, i got 2 REALLLLYYY comfy sweatpants from Old Navy that imma wear like everyday, a PENN STATE sweatshirt :) hehe Ben, and a hole buncha shizz from Aero cuz they are really cheap there, we were there from 145 - 630..1 hour there and back so i got home at like 730 ish, it was fun spendin time with the girlz, it was so funny on the way there, Alainas sister was asking me if i saw sum show and i didnt no wut she was talkin about, and Alaina was like Dee, if its not channel 53 52 54 55 56 31 32 33 or 49 she doesnt no wut ur talking about, it was just so funny how she sed it

So i came home had dinner and called Jess, imma see her tomorrow after her camp friends go home, damn my feet her so much...well imma go do something i dunno what..but i cant wait to get the pics back :-) PeACE <3 JenNy FrOm thE blOcK

JeSs! I hope you had a greatt time sweetie you deserve it, iLu!

@ Alainas!!!!

2004-09-17T04:00:02Z

On the way down...

wuddd uppp!! im chillen at Alainas =] . .

Yesterday*!!
went to skool...then went home on jessz bus and me jess and jess bomm walked to get our nails and toes done! wow..long ass walk in the rain! lol..i got a french on my nails and toes and they look hot...then we went to ritas and i got a custard and then we walked to burger king and jess bomm got sumthin and then we went to this store and i bought condoms lmao for eal this time...then my mom came anf got us and we dropped jess and jess off...thirtieth? lmao

then my dad was waiting at my house and we went to mickie ds lol..cuz hes short on money cuz he hasnt been in work...we talked about things...there might not be no more nhl! sniff sniff...there like protesting and want more money and the average person doesnt like hockeyh and they keep loosing money...wtff! i like hockey! that sucks...then i came home and my dad stayed awhile...when we go to disney he might not be able to go on alot of the rides cuz of the condition he is in =[

i called ben to see if he can take me to jessz cuz she wanted me to sleep over but he wanted to see me instead =] sooo ben came over and we watched a movie and stuff lol ;) i cant believe hes leaving tomorrow...im so sad im gunna miss him soo much
me- outta all the girls in the world you wanna be with me before u leave?
ben- who else wud i wanna be with jen
me- i wish u werent leaving
ben-me either cuz then maybe you and me can be..
me- dont say it :[

fuckin sucks...why does he have to leave...i no hell keep in touch but still...im cant be inna relationship if im never gunna see him..sighhh

so ben left at like 2 sumthin....we sed our goodbyess <333
today
woke uo like 1ish...did nothing moped around...then went back to sleep at 2...woke up cuz my mom and alaina called..cleaned my room found sumthin of bens he left here ;) lol......my mom is like pyco bitch today..i aksed her a ? and shes like i hate u i hope i die today...im like jeeshh..then i wanted to come here so she made me do all this yard work and i broke a fuckin nail...like god

so i came here..and i called my dad...and i dunno if imma go with jess tomorrow for our hair cuz my dad is gunna take me at 4 to get it done and to fix my nail..i love my daddy

so me and alaina are just chillen.i cant wait til tomorrow!! we gunna be doin the painta! hellzz yeah! tomorrow is gunna be crazy tho befor..alaina and rachel are sleeping overr..lmao well imma peace out...we are havin alota fun :)

Love Always - Me

i saw you <3

i feel 40 kindz of happiness..when your around

2004-09-15T02:17:40Z

my darling ben <3 i luv ya babe*

soo yesterday...missed my bus (( the chase begins )) so i went to Alainas house and took her bus...sat thru skOol..Jess came home with me * took pics for my graphic communications class lmAO - - i got this hot camera too...then we went and picked Alaina up from work and we went to Target..we were gunna get locker oraganizers for our locker..cuz we all share Alainas locker - - but they didnt have em..but i got the new Ryan Cabrera Cd! and its AMAZING!! Me and Jess are both gunna get the Nelly cds..Shes gunna get Sweat and Im gunna get Suit and just burn each others..probly next week tho !! nicee.... and I got Swat..and Condoms?? lmaO !! then we came home..had fajitas (( jen jess and alaina meal )) then just chilled ]] slept ova JeSsz..tOok pics in the Am tOo lol * obviously went to skOol - - that was gay..saw DAN!!! me Jess and Alaina were walking to 4th period and Jess was like " look theres your friend " so i figured it was gunna be someone i hate..sO i turned arOund and it was Dan!! I smiled sOo big and that made my day!! I never ever see him in skOol! yay! i was sOoo happy !! hes my bOy!! sO after skOol...Alainaz mom picked us up and we went to a shOe stOre cuz Alaina needs shOes for Friday (( keep in mind i got shOes awhile agO and i can not ..i repeat can not walk in them lol )) then we went to Mickie Ds and to work.. i love my job * itz fun - - my mom cudnt come get me so Alainas mom came and got me :) then came home and just chilled - - ate dinner - - talked to Alaina + Jess a lil bit * gOt a lil piSseD off at sOmeone but thats nOthing new ]] sOo i just came back from a walk with Ben <3 hes so cute, we talked about like everything * hes leaving on Friday for college (( not good :( )) i think i like older guys, they are more mature...anywayz, yep we talked and walked and mmhhhmm lol * mwha :: now i am home ]] leave a nice comment <3 JenNy

me: call<3
ben: im already dialing :)

awwww

mii_fairy_tale @ 2004-09-12T22:17:00

2004-09-13T03:42:10Z

heyyyy...wudddd uppp lol..im just chillen here - listenin the new MA$E cd i got today ( very happy hes is back! ) and on the phone with my ben =]

well this weekend was cool...i went to jessz padres..today..her dad woke us up at 10ish and we went out to brunch lol...i love her dad..he is just so cool...we came home and went to the mall...i got the new MA$E cd!!! ahhh yesss!! and CenterStage..great moviee..we got some wishing dust put on us! HELL YEAH! her brother is lil physo..like whoa..

came home and did our annual walk to rite aid...jess saw her boy * awww * then went home and watched dawsons creek episodes jess bought today..

but my weekend was real nice..hung out with my girl..had many laughs of course
were just 2 friends.. 2 good friends... 2 best friends =]

came home talked to alaina for a lil...went in the shower...ben called =] still on the phone with him..! talking about hmmm..none of ur business!

this week...
tomorrow- jess is coming home on my bus...goin out for a lil with her and alaina...gunna get the RYAN CABRERA CD!!! ahh yay!! now i have money i can finally get it!!
tuesday- working..making MONEY! hell yeah
wed- gettin the nailz and toez done with jess
thursday- hmmm...not sure! probly chillen with ben!
friday- party hardy!!!

well im off...gunna talk to ben for the rest of the night..then go to bed <333

at jessz padres!

2004-09-12T03:13:32Z

hi! hi! hi! hi! hi! hi! hahaha...me equals very sleepy but its all good...came home late last night but i had a good time :) jess came and got me at like 11ishhh...my madja was such a bitch today i was like ma..u dont have a uteris so why are u pmsing???? god damn whore...anywayz...we went out to the golden bell dinner..and then we went up to OB...jess went and visited her amigo..and pam went and got a dress for jessz party which is only 6 dayzzzzz away!! wOo hOoo! :: excitment :: then we came to her padres! i helped jessica with her sweet 16 plans...im sitting at her table! whoppp im verrrrry happy about that! i was at the table - alaina*dan*rachel*alicia*beth*kim*nick...but i got moved upp! lol....cheese! so after that we walked to TaRget and didnt get anything..i was gunna get jersey gril but ill make my mom get it for me..then to starbucks..and i got a hot cocoa..but it sucked dick so was like umm this sucks can i get a different thing and i did...it was alright...i really jsut wanted a cup of whipped cream but yeah..lol..so we walked home..and had italian for dinnerr..yess..then watched JerSey GirL! again! with her padre and chris...ahhh i love it sooo muchhhh!!! ben is sooooo sexsiiiiii <3 but now we are just chillen...havin a good time as always...soo imma be out! pizza!

and to my buddy Ben, we had a awesome time last night, we gotta hang out more often! <3 ya

TO ALEX - MY BUDDY OL PAL!
hello my dear, your a piece of shit ya know that? sorry bout ur grandpa but u SHOULD NOT be flipping out on jes for it...if you really are concerned about him which im sure you probly are, why are you out fuckin girls other than ur girlfriend, but who knows wuts up with her cuz it seem slike ur always fucking up, jess doesnt need you in her lefe, and you deff dont need her in ur life bc jess is way to good for you, you are to much of a low life for jess to even think about forgiving you EVER...all u do is the same shit over and over again.lie..lie and some more lieing...you do this to a lot of girls, but jess is the only one who actually sticks up for herself and RESPECTS herself not like ur other sluts ..u only care about urself and no one else...jess is through with you and ur bullshit, this was it...so peacE OUT! cuz no more of her even if u do feel like shit about wut ya did..cuz u will never change and if u do change, it will be way to late to get her, you shithead. for a fact i know that she already moved on, and doesnt care about you or what you anymore, no more broken heart for her, no more telling ur lies to her...no more her....honestly..why do u think ur soo big and bad..cuz ur a lil shit who thinks more of himself than what you really are..there is noooo reason or excuse why u had to say all that shit to her, and treat her the way you do..and shes sick of it and so am i. i hate seeing her all upset over a piece of shit like you...sooo shes done with you for good.

leave me a nice sweeeet comment * JeN Xo0x

On the way down...i saw you

2004-09-11T06:30:46Z

WOW....i am goin to pass out in about 10 minutes holy shit...yesterday i slept ova jessz !! whoop..we watched Joey and Jersey Girl..and everyone knows im in love with Ben Affleck..but dude..that movie is sooooooooo cute and its soooo good...wow i need to buy it...went to sleep and shizz and went to my favorite place...we had a pep rally 4th period..just in my hall way...so me and beth went and got jess lol then i went home on alainas bus...and we ordered a pizza..hah..and when it came of course both us of us had to get the door cuz its a pizza boy! lol..and it was Pat!! and me and him were like oH! HEY! at the same time lol...then we walked to work...holy calido...it was hot lol..but then madre and padre came and got us half way down the road, then work and i love my job. then came home for 20 mins...and went to babysit..ryan wanted to chill tonight but of course i cudnt...ughhhh i was soooo bored and tired...i fell asleep a few times, talked to jess and called ben up..and i was like come over i am sooo bored!! lol...so he did..and we watched a movie together and it was funnn :)...i fell asleep on him lol...i was sooo tiredddd..well i just got home,and i got 40 bucks...are u kidding...its 2 in the AM!!..wutever...stayin at jessz dads for the weekend! we will have a good time! be home sunday night Xo0x

kid-you like italian boys?
me-yeah
kid-you dont like irish or german boys?
me-no
kid-why do u like italian boys?
me- cuz they are sexsii + im usually only interested in italians..its a thing
kid-ohh so irish kids arent
me-no
kid-do u have an italian boy?
me- nope
kid- well can i be ur italian boy
me- lol YeAh oK!
kid- im serious :(

me-ohhh ummm.. kid-fineeee i see how it is

GirL TaLk!

2004-09-08T23:25:12Z

Well yesterday was funn....Happy Birthday Nick !! You mah bOy! lol..you know i love ya

skOol just sucks so much ass...like seriously...i hate it so much. After skool I thought i was gunna chill with Nick but it was a misunderstanding so we are just gunna hang out tomorrow..so its all good. So i went to sleep of course..woke up at 5 and went to Target with Jess and madja...got 13 Goin on 30 and SWIMFAN!! lmao...YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME!!! lmao <-- my favorite part...and a whole bucncha shizz for escuela and a new purse..whoop

Then we went out to AppleBees!!!! omggg....wut a crazzy nighttt...too many good timess..and we told the waitress it was my moms birthday...and my mom didnt no....hahahaha...but wow i havent laughed that hard in sucha long time...well if im with jess that kinda tends to happen..lol..and it was jessz birthday dinner from my mom so yeah...

Then i came home...and i wrapped Nicks birthday gift..i hope he likes it :) and took a shower and yeahhh...

Today woke up inna bitchy mood...didnt feel like gettin dressed or nothing so i was like screw it...i got no one to impress...and my mom wants me to go to a pyscotrist..psshh yeah Ok! fuck that shit..why shud i tell someone stuff when i dont even no them? and plus im PERFECTLY FINE..im pretty happy..yeah some fucked up things happened to me..but im over them..i dont need to go there --> beleive me...

but anywayz i fell asleep in chem today...and mr paturzzo was making funna me of course..and put me under the emergency shower thing..asshole..and it was on!! and i got wet... fucker

fell asleep 3rd and 4th too..not for long tho..i cant help it..its soo pointless and boring and i cud care less...during lunch me and noon went to get my ID for work...i looked like shit but wut else is new lol we gotta go back tomorrow to get it so yeah

after skool came home on alainas bus..and then we went to work..it was ok..im matchmaker..i got these 5th graders to go out lol..im soo good..it was soo cute..and she was like if i go out on a date with him my parents wont let me..im like HELLO..just say ur going to ur friends house..thats wut i always do..lol

but yeah now im home..padre was in the hospital again today..he hasnt gone back to work yes..ummmm..my mom is talking to him now so maybe she nos sum stuff...im gunna go shower and go watch a movie and get to bed..im mad tired <3

bOrEd

2004-09-07T03:21:42Z

today sucked dick...jess left me at like 12ish..then did nothing...talked to a few ppl on the phone..didnt really go online..didnt feel like it..took a nap til like 730 that was nice :) and yeah thats about it...woke up took a shower and did the hurr..had dinner..did my annually nighty skool talks with my sistaz jess and alaina and yeah thats it..soo im gunna go cuz theres nothing else to say. Xo0x

RaZzlE DaZzLe!

2004-09-06T05:58:02Z

yo homiez...wuts up.. soo today..i went to ob to pick up jess at her daddys..then we went to wall for her family labor day party! and jess was SO on the radio! cuz her mom is goin out with someone who works for the 94.3 and it was soooo funny! then we went to her aunts house...it was funn...her uncle chris is soo sexsii..like whoa.. hah..it was sooo cold tho..aunt paula loves my new hair alot..and says me and jess look more alike now..and jessz mom sed we look like twins:)..she alwaysz says that lol..but it was fun but just really long then we came home..i showed jess my dress and she loves it, it was jaw dropping hah and she wants to borrow it...and we wanted to watch butterfyl effect, so we called alex and he came by to take us to blockbuster..but he can only take one of us so i went..the lady at blockbuster is a bitch jeeze .. now im on the phone with dan for like a hour lol...but me and jess are chillen and gunna go watch the butterfyl effect! tomorrow im supopsta to chill with nick so nick if u see this call or text my cell so i no wuts up....

well im out

<3 JeN + JeSS

Wut uP GaNxSTa!! lOl iM sO whiTe

2004-09-05T04:43:21Z

HoLLeR...alot to catch up on..well kinda

Yesterday

skOol was fuckin gay...the only classes I can stand is 1st n 2nd and Mr. Paturzzo is my chemistry teacher..this shud be fun . . .thats about it...its just gay
Then I had my first day of work..i love it. its so fuckin easy...and usually i dont like kids..but i like them lol...you just make sure they dont die lol and its even better cuz Alaina is there too so we can chill and she got me on the right track lol
I work til 6 and she works til 530 cuz i dont work everyday like her..so after work i went and picked her up and she came back here. It was funn...we closed the pool how sad..lol...then we just chilled and around 10ish we went for a nice lil walk to meet up with Nick..lol..I was all for it, Alaina was scurred. I put my lights on and music on in my room, and shut the door so it looked like we were in there..so then we got a flashlight and my pepper spray and went to the light at the corner of Harmony and Jackson Mills, it was kinda far but it was scarry cuz it was night lol...so then we get there..and we are freaking out cuz Nicks not there yet but then we saw him lol..and Alaina wanted to go home right away..i wudda stayed but it was all good. So Nick walked up back over the bridge and went back home. hah..we do anything we just walked there and back but we were really bored....it was really funny too but yeah then we got on my street and Nick called to check up on us ( gracios ) then we just chilled and alaina is a whore...lol..1st she got herself pizza and didnt get me a piece.and we were fighitn about it for like a half hour...and then she went to sleep at like 1130. soooooo...i made her go upstairs..i toook a shower..straightened my hair..and watched new york minute all by myself..then went to bed.

today

sOooOOo then i wake up..fell asleep on the floor..lol..and i told alaina i had a dream i got in a car accident and she new..she sed i was like figiting in my sleep and saying stuff..wierd...then we went off to the mall..wow i hate dress shopping..it was like miss congeniatlity lol..i got this really pretty dress and once i put it on my mom new it was the one! i got shoes to match..lmao everyone was lookin at me and alaina cuz she got a dress too ... and we put the hangers over our head and trying on shoes to match the dresses..wow i cant walk in shoes....but i cant wait to the party its gunna be sooooo much fun i cant wait!! hah dress shopping with alaina is a blast..it funny

so tthen we came home...and alaina vamosed...we had alot of fun..then i went to sleep..woke up had dinner..then Dan called me and wanted to no if i wanted to chill with him and Nick..so i did lol..so i got ready super fast...cuz they came in like 5 mins...no make up no hair did..but its all good in the hood..i dont care..id rather not do any of that stuff cuz its a pain in the ass anywayz...soo they wanted to chill here..but theres nothing to do here..so we went to the outlets....even tho we didnt do anything and just walked around..it was kinda fun.i was gunna give Nick 20 bucks to go into Calvin Klien..and i wud pick out a whol entire outfit..just to try on..and he thought just a shirt to try on.hah no way...i aint givin up 20 bucks just for a shirt..i wanted the whole package..so we left .lol...dans car is ghetto to the max yo...so after that we came back here and chilled for a lil and then they adiosed...they were very " giggly " tonight.. Nick were they " doin it " lmao

tomorrow im goin to ob to pick up jess then goin to her aunts house in wall for a party...then we are coming back here and shes sleeping over....so now im just talkin to pplz..Xo0x

lOVE ALWAYZ ~ JeNnY <333

Im gOin to marry Joey McIntyre!!!!!! <3

2004-09-02T19:47:40Z

* Its just life . . . so keep dancing through *

Yesterday wow yesterday was amazing !! I went to NYC with the Madre . . . first we went to the ESB but we didnt go to the top, cuz we wanted to go at night, so we just got the tix . . . then we walked to times square, and went out to lunch at the ESPN resturant, that was nice, it was overlooking times square!! Then we walked to Toys R Us!!! ahhh...sooo many memories there!!! Me Jess + Alaina met Nick and Aaron there!! And for my b-day..hah karoke and the ferris wheel...then we just chilled in times square, hahaha and we pasted the libray..remmeber alaina..went to the hershey store, oH! i bought this pin and it says RE- ELECT BUSH! and a picture of him..i love it! lol...then we went to see WICkED!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhh!!!!!! OMG..we had 4th row!!!!! When they first came out i started crying...it was soooo amazing...alot better than when i saw it the first time..and Joey McIntyre is now Fiyero and OMG im in love with him!! When he was doin his moves during Dancing Through Life..Holy crap right then and there...omg hess sooo sexsii..Jess is in love with the old Fiyero, but i love the new one! Defying Gravity was just absolutly outstanding of course!!! I got choked up during that...Popular was sooo funny, and Im not that Girl, was awesome...and after intermission, i dont wanna say and ruin it for anyone, but Fiyero ( Joey ) is standing there..and when they came out he was LOOkING AT ME!!!!!!! And my mom nudged me, and was like hes looking at you!!!!!!!!! im like i nO!!!!!! ahhh lol...As Long As Your Mine was SOOOO AWESOME! like im makin it seem like i never seen it, but it was just soooo good...no good deed was scary cuz i was so close up..And at the end the curtain call...Fiyero came out and i stood up and im like screaming my head off for him, and he was lookin at me and winked...jsfbgubsdufbgursgb but wicked is just soooooooooo amazing, like im not a broadway girl or anything, but i just love this play!! Me + Jess are gunna go back b4 Jan 18.. when Elphaba leaves :( OMG!! Elphaba was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOODD!!!!!!! and GLINDA!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG! at the end..I LOVE IT! i wanna saw wut happens BUT i cant! ahh when this THING happens..its just soo YAY! i just love it..and i got a sweatshirt from the play too..yay

After wicked me and my mom went to Olive Garden..and i got calamari...and my mom wanted to try it and im like ya no its octapus right..lmao and she spit it up!! hahaha...then we went to the ESB! MY BUILDING! whoop! it was soo pretty up there at night...haha remmeber alaina when u stuck ur head thru the bars haha...i took pics but mainly when it was light out..ull see when jess uploads them at her dads for me :) i also got an empire state building charm thingy for my nomination braclet jess got me for my b-day..its soo hot..its 2..like the top and the bottom..and my mom got me a 250$ crysal ESB for x-mas but she got the price down to 95$!! niceee...it just soo nice up there...i tried callin ppl but it didnt go thru...and hella copters were goin around the building..lol

ahh me and jess are now listenin to as long as your mine..and it was just soo perfect

so then we walked to where the bus gets us..and we went home..i was like hey ma..maybe this will be like the movie speed and theres a bomb on the bus!! and everyone was lookin at me..but then i just turned on my jessica simpson cd and went to sleep.

then i came home and went to jessz...i was soo exhausted but its all good in the hood...hah i kept freezing nintendo 64 whoops..well i woke up at 2 ...now we are just chillen..so peace out

" im sorry we all cant come to and from by bubble "

yup

2004-08-31T17:14:53Z

soo im at jessz and i just woke up..um..yeah not in the best mood but w/e..yesterday i chilled here, came home, me and jess ate dinner, then went to alainas partay. it was fun, we got to see cassie:) ummm...i looked like crap the whole nite, well technically when i first got there i looked good but ya gotta love summer, and dominick sitting on you right when he gets outta the pool, and gettin you all wet lol. so when we got there we just mingled then we went to retrieve nick, then we turned around and went back home. umm...yeah..i need to talk to him and he knows why..and ur not hurting urself ur only hurting me, and im gunna write him a email when im done with this cuz no one needs to no everything that happens in my effin life..but yeah..i chilled with sum ppl last night, and yeahhhhh. the ninja turles were back last night :) but we went home, and thats when everything happened..like i new it for a long time but its just fuckin gay but u cant help it, anyways, went online for a lil..jess had some drama too..alaina were proud..and basically thats it..were goin to the mall tonight probly with beth so that shud be funn...why cant anything ever go the way you want it to?

well im out..leave a comment

DEDICATED TO NICK SODANO

2004-08-31T04:37:41Z

It's not that I can't live without you
It's just that I don't even want to try
Every night I dream about you
Ever since the day we said goodbye
If I wasn't such a fool
Right now I'd be holding you
There's nothin' that I wouldn't do
Baby if I only knew

The words to say
The road to take
To find a way back to your heart
What can I do
To get to you
And find a way back to your heart

I don't know how it got so crazy
But I'll do anything to set things right
'Cause your love is so amazing
Baby you're the best thing in my life
Let me prove my love is real
And make you feel the way I feel
I promise I would give the world
If only you would tell me

Give me one more chance, to give my love to you
'Cause no one on this earth loves you like I do,
tell me

I turn back time
To make you mine
And find a way back to your heart
I beg and plead
Fall to my knees
To find a way back to your heart

These Arms of mine
Are open wide
From now until the end of time
You are my world what can i do?
This heart of mine belongs to you

isnt this the perfect song...

UsHer Is nOt hOt, nOt cute, hes SEXSSSSSIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-30T05:38:16Z

hello my loves, im at jessz as always :) we are havin mucho funo! well today i woke up and watched * The Big Green * then i took a shower and got ready cuz fadja came and got me..!! hes lookin really good, we went to comp usa and then to the movies..we saw Open Water and that sucked dick...they just chilled there for 2 hours in the water..but yeah after fadja showed me where he got in the accident and stuff..that was awkward..but then we went to boston market. my dad was acting a lil wierd...very strange but im glad to see him better and stuff, then i came home..went online...took another shower...then i came over jeeesssssiiiccassss whoooop!! we did our annual walk to dunkin doughnuts <-- is that how u spell the pastry with a hole in the middle?? it looks too longs lmao jess cuz dough - nuts but anyways...kaite wasnt there so we walked to wawa and i got a cherry slurpy..mmmm...then we went back to D+D n Eric was workin and i was like ERIC!!! I PASSED GEOMETRY!!!! and he was like NO WAY!! lmao and he cudnt stop laughing!! lol..then we walked home and came online and watched the vmas...OMG like everyone nos i love usher...But OMG!!!!!!!! he isssss sooo sexsii i want him...he did hot on his performance and so did X-tina + Nelly..and Diddy is just hot and my man...so now me and jess are just chyllen, and im talkin to a few boys i dont really no but we are havin nice convos ;) ....Nick might come over tomorrow :) i hope he does....

we are shrek + donky! whoop! cuz i loveeee shrek and jess is just donkey LOL BFF

oh guesss wuttt...jen got a neww phonnee..yeah ok big whoop its still the same piece of shit phone but just new..i was thinkin maybe a nice picture fone..but noooo oh well...

well we are oUt!!!!! Alex might be comin ovaa...<3 alwayz * BlOnDiE

YE SI DID!!!!!! <-- SOUND IT OUT!! INDIAN! LMAO JESS

lmao just say hes evan..say he got a face job!!!! lmao

" see my my idea of adventourus is goin outside on my porch at 2 in tha am..but ur idea is driving ur moms car to blockbuster!! lmao ' - jess

hOlLEr

2004-08-29T05:57:32Z

sOo today was alright i guess...woke up and went to get my hair did @ 11:15 // i was like MAKE ME BROWN! and my mom was like NO! im like alrighty...MAKE ME BLONDE! lol - - sOo im blonder..like a lot blonder..but i wish it was ALOT more blonde cuz my hair was really light before and i dunno i just wish it was blonder but i cant do anything about it now :-/ soo that took like 2 hours and then i went out for pizza with the madre and then a few stops ;-) came home and called my padre<3 hes feeling about the same as yesterday, i asked him if he wanted anything at the store and i wudda went on gotten him it, but he doesnt // guyz...like i know it cudda been alot worse, but im just really scared for him. Im seeing him tomorrow, and if you know my dad (( which only a few of you do )) hes not gunna wanna stay home and rest, hes gunna wanna go to a movie or w/e, but i can just go to his house myself and i can rent a movie like sumtimes we do, but he hasnt returned my calls so i dunno * anywayz after i came home the lady picked me up to babysit and it was easy, i got 35 bucks for 3 hours ]] came home around 9:15ish, and called jessica and watched law + order with my ma . . it was funny .. a step-madre was sleeping with her step-son lmaO * wut a world we live in * ohhh..me and jess are both cool ;-) hah :: well ryan is gunna call soon, so imma go upstairs :-) - - peaCe out kidz <3

everytime i see your face, i cant help but say " i love that kid " <3

JusT kiLL me nOw . . .

2004-08-28T01:41:04Z

im so afraid to care about someone, i no it seems like im a strong girl who has made it through everythin but inside im really fragile, ive had so many things thrown at me & each 1 makes me crack, im afraid of shatterin, im afraid of [[ g e t t i n * h u r t ]]

sooo....my dad got into a car accident :( for work he drives these big cement trucks...and yesterday at work he was driving and the steering wheel locked...and he went full speed into a big tree. if he didnt go into the tree he would have died. the truck is all damaged and the ambulance had to come and take my dad to the hospital. he had to stay overnight and hes in alotta pain, nothing is broken, but hes all bruised up and he can barley breathe. he got out this afternoon and im really upset. my dad is the sweetest most wonderful dad in the whole wide world and he doesnt deserve to be hurting the way he is. and these things always happen to my dad, diabetes, possibly skin cancer, and now this. like wtf. he doesnt deserve any of it. it makes you see how quickly you can loose someone. i could never live without him. now im gettin all sad again so im gunna stop. i hope he feels better and i just love him so much.everything is just goin so wrong latley.

Rachel wanted me to go to Krome with her tonight and sorry Rach..i know we were supposta to hang out today but i didnt get ur message or ur call till like 7 and I was pretty upset about my Dad so I dunno if i cud have went anywayz...next time. Alaina wanted me to go over but I just wasnt in the mood today...sorry.

I went to sleep to get my mind off of things, Dan called me, and i was so happy, cuz i missed him like whoa and I just needed to talk to him.

But im gunna go...im gettin my hair done tomorrow morning, so im gunna go look at sum pics online to see what color hair i want exactly, i wanna go dark dark brown so bad, or as blonde as jessica simpson, but im gunna go look up some pics of her or britney or 1 of my girlz and get the exact hair i want and im talking to jessie and nick and they are makin me feel better :) thanks guys

leave a comment ;) <3 JeNNy

scotty doesnt know!!

2004-08-27T04:47:09Z

hmmm...i feel sick but oh well....yesterday i chilled at jessz and watched eurotrip! BEST MOVIE EVER!! and i was like dammnn why do they always show girl parts why cant they show any guys..how lucky were me and jess to see 80 old men naked...PLUS RUNNING! and they were itty bitty teeny weeny ones..lmao...then i went home for 10 mins and alaina came and picked me up and i slept over ..it was fun considering i havent talked to her inna really long time..we had a pow wow in the pool and then just chilled. shes convinced that i dont have a brain but i know its there! and she wants to see me on caffeine pills cuz she thinks im hyper now just wait til i get my hands on them lol...

me- i hate you..i really hate you
alaina- why!
me- cuz you never listen to me and i always listen to you
alaina-bullshit you never listen to me!
me-sure i do
alaina-no you dont
me-ok.. sumtimes i listen to you
alaina- no jen you never listen to me....stop drinkin pepsi
me-................THAT IS NOT WUT WE ARE TALKING ABOUT HERE!!!

lol it was pretty funny..so we chilled and went to sleep then had a work meeting in the am and that was gay...came home met this lady who wants me to babysit her grandkids on sat..yes money..and she was reading my shirt and it said bates motel..and shes like ohh great how comfronting..im like yeah well jfhfjdhgfd...then i ordered proactive for my el faco online..and then i went back to my wonderful jessicas!! yippeee!

jess- jen when you get proposed to this is going to be you...." NO WAY!! FUCK YOU!!! "
jen- WELL AT LEAST IM NOT GUNNA FALL DOWN THE ISLE!!!! lmao

and we watched the olympics oh did we! hahahaha...and made cookies and her dad was suprised we got passed the dough part and jess was like were not even on the oil part hah and went to the park with dylan and of course guys are lil horny bastards and always has to say somethin everytime we leave the fuckin house...god...but me and jess are like the stupidest ppl ever we just are...like we cant stop laughing ever!

so then i left and went to shoprite and found a winner there...and came home and did nothing was gunna chill with rach and nick but we didnt so maybe tomorrrrrow...now im talking to sheryl and i cant breathe..we are cracking each other up like u have no idea..and shes giving me this hilarious advice..but i need it b/c im so stupid..i cant tell u wut we are talking about but im just soo like not knowing anything..and she thinks is really funny..

look at wut a whore sheryl is...lmao im just kidding i loveee youu!

FishStix1127: she better not even think about my john
FishStix1127: cuz ill rip her face off her body
MiSzNiCkCarTer: god shes such a hoe i wudnt be suprised
MiSzNiCkCarTer: she cant keep a dick outta her mouth
FishStix1127: lol
FishStix1127: me either

lmao ..well im adiosingg nitey nite mwHaSz

AT JESSIEZ!!!!!!!!!

2004-08-25T17:26:41Z

good morning....im at jessiez whoop! got to sleep niccee and latee...brett is supposta come ova a lil lata..sooo yeahhh...lol...* last night* oh damn lilo and stitch is on..oh! its almost 3 so boy meets world is coming on..jess thought it was the funniest thing cuz i no boy meets world comes on at 3am..she almost peed...and i almost made her threw up..cuz im just so gosh darn funny...lmao...* the other night*why do u sleep without the tv on...if u want it on u go get the remote..i aint gettin the remote...well i aint gettin the remote...* last night* well do u wanna watch a movie...sureee...u pick i aint gettin up..nahh im good with even stevens lmao..u just had to be there

yesterday i woke up pissed off almost got inna car accident driving to jessz cuz i wasnt thinkin straight and kinda went to make a left turn and went to the wrong side of the road..oops

my mom hurt her back like whoa and i feel really bad..she cant go to work and i hope she gets better

watched dylan...it was a really long day...then jess came back home..and we walked to rite-aid and dunkin doughnuts as always..its a jess and jen thing to do...and saw katie at dd of course cuz she works there..got ice cream for 1.15$ niccceee righhtt except i got the discusting ice cream and was dripping everywhere in the store and jess and katie were crackin up..and i had to leave the dd and on the way home to go to jessz i wanted to throw it at a car (( lol nick )) but jess wudnt let me...i was supposta hang out with nick today but im not so im slept ova jessz again! when am i not here?? lol but were havin a great timmee..!

me jess and rach are gettin hookers lmao dont ask * BFF *
and jess is the peacemaker lol..
its turkey lurkey time...tom turkey ran way and he just came hooomee lmao....HEY! do u wanna come out and play the game ..it never to late..haha RIIIIIIIISEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but ummm...im really upset b/c im sooo sick of bein lied to...its like everything im bein told and everything that our relationship is..is a lie. and i hate it b/c u think u are so close to someone which i am...and they mean the world to you which they do..and you dont mean anything to them...if you dont fuckin like me in a friendship way or any other kind of way..just let me know...cuz im sick of looking like an idiot b/c ur just letting me to it to myself and ur just sitting there watching...i trust you i do.i wanna trust you..and everything thats been goin on latley and in the past..i dont see how u can keep doin this to me over and over again...and right now im feelin like im soo pissed at you and i just wanna cryy..but then things change and im back to fallin for you again...for some reason i cant let you go..and i dont want to..but im just so confused cuz i love you with all of my heart and it seems like you dont care if i feel like this..like i no you do..i just hate goin thru this..cuz its deff not the best feeling.. i dont wanna say goodbye..EVER..you just make me sooo extrmely happy and your a big part of my life..im not saying im all about you..but i just care about you so much and wish you did the same about me..i wish things were different..and i go thru more than you mite think..and you make me feel better thru alot of stuff i go thru..from now on im just not gunna care about how i act or look or wut i say...b/c u only live once and it was perfect when i had you..but now if no one can except me for me than i dunno wut to tell ya b/c im me..im not saying u dont care about me or w/e cuz im sure you do..but i just wanna be happy..i wanna be able to come to you when i need you..i wanna be able to cry on your shoulder..i want you to hold me and tell me everythings going to be alright..i wanna hold hands...i wanna be yours and i wanna make us last...yess u hurt me before...but its not about that..its about right here right now...and i dont wanna chase you and i dont wanna be all hung up over you..but i cant help the way i feel i just cant no matter what..and your different from other ppl..its just really hard b/c i feel like crying more than a 16 year old girl should..all i can say is that i love you you were the first person i ever loved and its really hard to let you go...i had relationships but with you it was so much more different than the others... you actually loved me for me... i cant even describe what i went thru with others..but with you i was happier and i hope you can see that. <~ DeDiCatEd . . . he knOws wHo hE iS* xOXox

my cell is dead ... so if anyone needs me i dunno wut to tell you..just dont die thanx...well im just sitting her gettin pretty upset..jess is in her room...but im the only one who knows exactly how i feel and it just sucks..i believe you..everything you tell me i beleive you..its just hard when you hear things from other ppl..and i hate bein lied to cuz its just fuckin gay

PeaCe Out sEe ya LatA! <3 JeNnY

leave me a comment..i need some love <3

SiXtEeN CaNDLlLlEeEsSs

2004-08-24T02:59:15Z

today sucked..then sucked some more..then got better.

woke up mad early to go babysit and i kept fallin asleep and the day was just way too long and i gotta do it again tomorrow.but i wont die so yeah.

found out some messed up and bad news but w.e .. it just never stops. i never made a mistake..i never did anything to deserve what im gettin and it sucks cuz things never happen the way you want them to...honestly you just gotta ....................let it burn

came home from babysitting at 530...got ready and went to jps party. that was funn...its the first time i got spiffy all summmer...chilled with dan kate and ingram and i just needed that. i had a really good time and happy birthday jp even tho i told you like 19 times..thats ok! me and daniel had to leave a lil early b.c his aunt is in the hospital so he took me home then went to the hospital and i hope everything is ok.

talked to ashley and barbi..they called me from north carolina..i felt loved =) but ashley..she really tells me the real deal..like everything that happens in my life or if i do something she tells me straight up advice and she doesnt care how im going to react bc she looks out for me i mean she tells me the honest truth and i love her for that.

but i gotta go to sleep..gotta watch dylan in the am again..call my cell to keep me awake

i cant change the way i feel.....if everything that was said to me is true then there shudnt be anything to think about it..i shud be it.

SLEEPY TIMMEE

2004-08-23T02:21:47Z

wow...im sooo tired. i gotta go to bed early tonight and wut i mean by early is like before 12. im about to pass out. all i want to do is be with nick right now. seriously thats all im thinkin about..i just want to be with him, i want him to be here with me. he just called and i feel bad cuz i wasnt very enthusiastic cuz im just so tirred.i wanna talk to him but hes at alainas house or sumthin...........today i went to d+d with my mom and to the mall to go shopping that was nice cuz i got all this stuff with her credit card. came home and ran into the ladders in the garage oops ...tomorrow i gotta get up mad early to watch dylan jessz lil bro from 715-530ish...i love him to death but i know its gunna be a long day. then after probly goin to jps party...me and nick are kinda together but he wants to ask me out in person and i think its really cute and im really glad he decided to do that...i just love him so much i really do. he makes me so happy...and hes just the best and i really hope he knows that because hes everything to me. he just takes my breath awayy <33

callin jess then goin to sleep....nite

WhAt a niGht! xO

2004-08-22T08:35:40Z

NICK + JEN <3 8-22-04

I love you :)